1.08.2013

saying hello to 2013


As I sit down to write this I feel like I have a lot to say but nothing will come out in a cohesive sentence.  All my thoughts are there, it’s just that they are scrambled up in my head.  That’s very similar to how the past year went. Everything seemed to be scrambled together.  2012 was a year of challenges. It tested me in all areas of my life.

Thinking back on 2012 I tend to think about how bad of year it was. However, I have to quickly remind myself that the bad challenges made me learn about myself; I had to dig deep to find out who I was. What I loved about me. And honestly, I am still searching. I have a pretty good base of who I am but I have accepted the fact that I will continue to change and grow, and that it’s okay if I don’t have it all figured out right now. Honestly, we will never have it all figured out. That’s the beauty of the journey.

This year has brought new trials to my marriage. It wasn’t always easy, it was actually really hard at times, but it made me have to understand the true meaning of commitment. Together we learned how to work and understand each other.  Because of that work, I am more in love with my husband than I have ever been.

2012 was full of wishing to get to the next step in life and not being content in what was happening in the moment. I had to step back and realize that everyday is valuable.  Now that seems a lot easier said than done. It took soul-searching, tears shed, and lots of bad days, but I did it. I learned the true meaning of the quote ‘life is about the journey not the destination’.  Each day is extremely special. No, everyday will not be cupcakes and fireworks but each day there will be something to be grateful for.

Although 2012 was a challenge, one that I am glad to put behind me, I learned a lot of valuable lessons. I am so excited to say hello to 2013 and for all the exciting things that are in store.

It’s going to be a good year, I can feel it. 

1 comment:

annton beate Schmidt said...

reading your words feels so close to how my 2012 has been, only articulated in a brighter way. thank you for that. greetings from a grey & rainy, but sunny inside, day in berlin.